So again I’ll say that love is complicated, relationships require a lot of attention and care.I’ve realized that a lot of what goes on in a healthy relationship, you-hopefully- already experienced with your family.

I’m talking about consistent unconditional love.

“How are you feeling about that I thing I know you’ve been really worried about?”

“How does that make you feel?”

“How can I help you?”

It seems simple but without truly experiencing that outside of your romantic relationships, it can be difficult. I am constantly being confronted of how my childhood prepared me emotionally for life and that includes love. I had few healthy functioning examples. A product I’m sure has to do with my parents age. My mom had me at 22. I’m the youngest of 3. Side note; FIRST OF ALL, I CAN’T. I could never imagine myself in that situation. Living that life. Much struggs, such stress. But anyway, it wasn’t the best for me, until she met my stepdad when I was 9. His impact on life has been great.However there’s something to be said about daddy issues, am I rite?! They fuckin suck for one, and for two they don’t go away so easily.

I’m realizing more and more how much I have to unpack to even scratch the surface of my understanding of love. As I was given it, and how I give it and live it, as an adult woman.

I need to go back to where I came from. Back in time, to get to the future I want. No Marty McFly.